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Push and Pull

  “Most of us have two lives. The life that we live, and the unlived life within us. Between the two stands Resistance.”  Steven Pressfield, The War of Art: Break Through the Blocks and Win Your Inner Creative Battles.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? Are all of our life experiences woven perfectly together like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle? There are times when I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason, that whether good or bad, our experiences are part of a grand, specifically tailored life design. At other times, I believe that the bulk of our everyday experiences are as random as the balls that pop up out of lottery machines. Presently, I am going through a mini “everything happens for a reason” phase. Propelling this recent phase is the discovery of a fantastic book by Steven Pressfield called “The War of Art: Break Through the Blocks and Win Your Inner Creative Battles.” During one of my You Tube video subscription watching sprees, I clicked on one of the recommended videos You Tube generates based on videos you have previously viewed. The video that I clicked on was one by Marie Forleo whom is described on her website as a “best-selling author, speaker, online-entrepreneur, Nike Athlete and Master Trainer, fitness personality, and dancer/choreographer, Marie has defied conventional wisdom and achieved phenomenal success across multiple industries.” Based on what I have been viewing lately on You Tube, I’m not quite sure why one of Marie Forleo’s videos was recommended for me, but I’ll forgive You Tube’s sometimes inexact science of recommending videos since it ultimately led me to Steven Pressfield’s book. So, there I was watching one of Marie Forleo’s informative, entertaining, and engaging videos when I glanced over to the right- hand side of my computer screen and read the title to another one of her videos, “The Must read book for Anyone who wants to create Anything.” Well, this lover of books was not about to pass up finding out about the book behind this video title. Almost immediately, I moved my cursor over the video title, clicked on the link, and thus began my journey into learning about Resistance.

Pressfield defines Resistance as the force that fights like hell to keep any creative ambition within us from shining through. Resistance is not always obvious, preferring to mask its intention to squash our creativity via thoughts and activities that on their face seem reasonable and justified. Resistance strongest ally is every fear- based and negative thought that has ever successfully trampled our minds and our spirits. If there is something that your soul is stirring to create, chances are Resistance has already unleashed every weapon in its arsenal to steer you away from that creative endeavor. As I make my way through this book, the role Resistance has played in dissuading me from pursuing the creative longings of my soul is becoming clearer. I can see now how Resistance has consistently fought to keep every negative and self- sabotaging thought and action in my life alive. In its latest bid to squash yet another creative aspiration, Resistance is working overtime to convince me to let go of the idea of taking an introduction to magazine writing class. The class I am looking into taking sounds like an ideal course for individuals who are interested in learning how the world of online and print magazine writing works. Resistance, being the formidable and stubborn opponent that it is, pounced immediately on some of the key aspects of the class, among which include producing two polished articles. In its mantra like way of crushing ones creative ambition, Resistance keeps chanting the following to me:

1. How in the hell are you going to come up with 4 to 6 ideas for stories you’d like to write when you can’t even imagine to find a niche for your blog?

2. Assuming you are able to come up with any suitable writing topics, do you really think anyone would seriously consider publishing anything you write?

3. When are you going to have the time to come up with story ideas, let alone write?

4. Are you really going to spend the money and the time this class requires, money and time you cannot afford to spend?

5. Do you really want to discover how foolish and pathetic this whole writing professionally thing is for you?

Resistance certainly isn’t pulling any punches. Like a stealth aircraft, Resistance forcefully went to the task of killing any desire in me to register for this class by strategically hitting all of my fear- based and negative zones. Is there any truth behind Resistance assertion that taking this class would stretch my budget and my time? Yes, that is true, but as Steven Pressfield says of Resistance, “the more important a project is to your soul’s evolution, the more resistance you’ll feel towards it.” Writing is one of the things that is central to my soul, it is my refuge. With each pen stroke and/or keyboard tap on my computer, I feel as if I am growing as a human being. Resistance is no stranger to the growth that writing offers to my souls evolution and it does not like it one bit. Accordingly, Resistance will use every weapon in its arsenal to stop my soul’s evolution dead in its tracks.

While I haven’t decided whether or not I will register for this class, I am resolved to struggle through the grip that Resistance is fighting to hold onto in my life. Honestly, I don’t know if I have what it takes to market myself in the world of freelance magazine writing, and at the end of the day, I may discover that freelance magazine writing is not for me. In order to discover where I truly stand with respect to this field, I have to be willing to expose myself to every facet of this industry. No doubt, Resistance will be there at every turn, ready for battle. I must suit up and fight like no tomorrow to win the battle against Resistance, knowing that each battle won will make me stronger to endure the war Resistance is intent on raging against my soul’s evolution.

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About musingsnyc

I'm a self-professed iOS app addict who loves reading, writing, surfing the Internet and my hometown, New York City. In 2000, I graduated from the City University of New York, Hunter College, with a degree in English (writing concentration) and Political Science. In August 2009, I received an online MBA degree with a specialization in Public Administration from the University of Phoenix. For the past 8 years, I've worked as a Paralegal in the Immigration Law Unit of one of the largest not for profit law firms in New York City. Prior to my work as a Paralegal, I worked as a Traffic Coordinator and Assistant Account Executive in a New York City based Hispanic advertising agency. Throughout all of my different work and school experiences the one constant has been my love of writing. As long as I can remember, I have been jotting words down in notebooks, pieces of scrap paper, and just about any surface where ink would not dissolve. I have always been eager to share my thoughts and opinions about what is going on in the world and my personal life via writing. It would be a dream come true if I could channel my love and passion for writing into a full-time or freelance opportunity. My goal is to share my thoughts, opinions, life experiences in a thought- provoking and entertaining way with all that drop by. I love interacting with people and thus would love and greatly appreciate all feedback via the comments section of this blog.

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